hateful diana, its bad!
Monday, August 15, 2016 4:11 PM Dean 0 comments
so... yesterday while talking randomly with Nani, she said something that made me go "am i really that bad?" and on second thought I really think I am that bad.the thing is, recently it is pretty obvious that I'm always judging people, hating on them...., even towards those I don't know personally. but in my own defence, I am not judging them specifically. Its just that sometimes, i tend to comment or point out something about them which i personally dont like. for example, this person is wearing something unacceptable for me so i kind of share it to my close friends and sort of ranting about it. mengumpat la senang?
but why would i mengumpat about someone yg dont even know me and i dont even know her personally irl kan??? so something is obviously wrong with ME, MYSELF. somehow im acting like a keyboard warrior but with more cowardice, not having the guts to even comment something about that person to the person directly. tapi bagusla sebab i am NOT a keyboard warrior like that. i hate being nosy. jaga tepi kain orang sampai nak comments about that person on her social medias and everything. see? but i do it silently, talking only to my friends sometimes.
anyway.... it just don't feel right! i should stop being this bitch. so i've decided to stop being on social media such as instagram, twitter and even snapchat. sebab those things yang triggered this bitch to go hating on people when they never harmed me in any way pun. so the best way is to stop socializing and get a life where i can be a better person.
i just felt that, that wasnt who i am. that hateful and spiteful person? not me! i am not always a hateful person. i dont hold grudges towards others. thus i should leave the things that made me into that ill-mannered person to be a better one. till then, i'll just be living with whatsapp imessage and facetime. and lawatan2 tidak rasmi ke fesbuk.
to a better diana, insya Allah.
