ciktoot.
Monday, April 20, 2015 10:34 AM Dean 0 comments
cikta just left home for good earlier tonight.the reality hasn't fully kicked in yet, but i do feel kind of numb now.
i'm watching the lizard on the ceiling, and i think of how much she hated lizards. and insects in general.
watched her no-sheet bed just now before misrah spread a new one, and it makes me feel sick to my stomach somehow.
it just feels like, you know, that she's gone only for few days; like the holidays we used to go back home together.
but still, i know that deep down; she's not coming back. well at least not close enough in the future. soon, yes. but still...
bodohlah kau cikta! for making me feel sad. for making me feel like its somehow empty and chilly in my heart. bodoh! i really feel like i've lost half of me.
