Dean for short | A proud Malaysian | 21 and clueless | Obsessed over long fingers | Mediocre j&k-pop fan | Book junkie | Cold-hearted at times | Mostly an emotional wreck | Short-sightedness | Black ftw > rainbow | I suck in any relationship |

to the loves of my life;

Nurhanani bt Domadzi-duh, literally my everything after my family. my emongg my neng my donut!!!

thanks for your presence in my life all this while, accompanying me throughout my teenage days. you were literally *almost* everywhere with me. when theres dean theres nani. truth is i cannot even tell how much i love you so. and theres nothing i wish more than being friends with you till the end of our lives insya Allah.

i am so sorry for leaving first. am so so sorry. i wont stop praying for your success too, nani. i wont. i really hope you'll never see yourself lesser than anybody, what more me. we're equal. if im stupid then so are you (heh) if im clever then you are too. never think otherwise. its just not meant to be yours yet. but i so so wish we'll meet again in umk, amiin. never downgrade urself. never give up. never be ashamed of what u have accomplished bcs im proud of u, nonetheless. i need u to know that ok?

i love you for who u are, neng. even at times i srsly feel like letting u go as i cant stand ur bullshits & everything. even at times i feel like giving up on u bcs i feel like im nothing in ur life. even at times i rlly hate how stubborn u are, how heartless u are towards me. but i accepted everything. not bcs im a loser. but bcs i truly accepted thats what makes you, a Hanani.

i pray that u'll never forget me. and be sure to tell me anything and everything. though we're far and i might not get the best internet access there, i want u to know that u can always reach me whenever u need someone to talk to, to listen at u, or to just reach me. i'll always be there, available 24/7. doubt not, i'll get back to u.

try ur best to always talk to me (or anyone else) when ure feeling down or u had a bad day. talking wont solve anything, but it helps to ease ur heart even just a bit, babe. never keep everything bottled up and suffer alone. know that u have me, ur friend here, to act and be a friend to u.

thank you for everything. the good laughs, the heartbreaking tears, the joy, the sorrow, the insults, the fights, the pickup lines, the inner language we both shared; thank you. thank you for being you, for being my utmost friend who i can rely on.

Nurul Qistina bt Mohtar- and hey my doggy (in a lovable manner) my annoying lil friend, my 0.00001 less best friend than nani (bcs we're literally twins, qist sorry but ily)

and i know the amount of time we spent throughout the years might not be much compared to the time i spent with the fella there. but u know ure as important as nani is in my life. ure the first bb(blackberry) friend i had back on those days. the ones i bbm-ed to tell how my days at school went. the one who bbm-ed me abt her college life.

ure always there giving me hopes and strength whenever i feel like giving up on our 3/4-ways relationship with nani & ana. ure always there, holding our hands together and not let we drift apart. ure always so kind to me when i feel like nani's ignoring my shits. heh yknow her pms mode right. u listened to my bullshits for hours at times. u called me using ur postpaid number during days where i dont have internet nor credits, for hours, not caring how much ur bill will goes up that month.

ure one loyal driver i can *sometimes* rely on to run errands and have our catch up sessions. ure my gym-buddy bcs nani is not so eager abt exercising. i know u love to bebel me abt my weight my complexion and everything simply bcs u care so much abt me. im sorry if at times i bitch out on u abt these matters bcs im that sensitive sometimes. thank you for ur tips and tricks and advices to make me a prettier woman though i literally boosted ur self esteem first (nak menang!!)

thank you for ur time with me. thank you for being the kind but egoistic but spoiled friend whom i love dearly though sometimes ure damn annoying. i also hope u'll keep in touch with me and never let nani stray away from us. be the anchor during my absence here.

i love you guys. be good. dont do anything stupid okay. we'll meet again soon! insya Allah.

// i know a bit over mcm tk balik dh but hey i just love u guys that much